Tuesday, 11 November 2008
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"Good evening Atys."
And that is how i've been starting my day for the past week or so.
Who knew the silence would be so golden, so surreal.
Alas! That done plague my income, cutting it off indefinitely.
"Tell it to your brother,
your sister, maybe your mother,
but my friends will never know;
the things i'll never show."
Thursday, 30 October 2008
Thursday, 23 October 2008
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Because of today,
because of tonight.
Oh! This tirade of bitterness and apathy,
the endless reprisal; change.
The written fervor,
The pondered angst...
This me will never be the same,
I'm sorry if you loved me,
I'm sorry if you cared for me,
but 'me' is lost, and I am here to stay. -
You know what? Forget everything I said in that post.
Fine, half of it.
I am fucking suey.
Please do not laugh at me when you see me with hair like
a fricking. gay.boy. I think. ehhhh shit lah I hate my life
oh my goodness.
WITH NO <3 AND XOXO,
SAD KID 2008.
Monday, 20 October 2008
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Today, was the BEST Chinese Karaoke Competition
I've been to! Oh my gosh,
ONE NIGHT IN BEIJING IS MY NEW FAVOURITE SONG!
Fuck Cavan I am fucking happy we didn't pon, hell yeah!
Come! Let Karaoke Master MCR give you a headstart to practice
the song to show off to all your friends!
Sigh. I know I've been swearing excessively as of recent.
I'll try to cut it down, but honestly, I don't know wtf is going
on in my life, and wtf I am doing about it. I just. My family,
my friends, my faith... For what it's worth, I want everything
back to normal, back to the best I ever had.
(HERE I GO PEOPLE)
"Okay look, where did I go wrong, I lost a friend somewhere in
the bitterness and honestly? I would've stayed up with you all
night, had I known how to save a life. Not just to you, but i've
felt so mad, angry, callous, lost, confused...So to you and you, let's
start over. I know I was always a new soul, coming into this
strange world feeling all the joy and fear...yet making every
possible mistake. I know that even the best fall down sometimes,
and even the wrong words seem to rhyme, still I've loved both of you
more than you'll ever know. So since everything's been said and done,
all I can do is sit, wait and wish. I'd throw it away and forget yesterday,
just to make the great escape; They can bring on the rain, but you'll
always be my thunder, so nothing else will do...I gotta have you.
(and you hehe.)
I'm finally free tonight." -
To the two separate people I meant this for:
Fuck this, why can' t we just talk?
Why the apathy?
Sunday, 19 October 2008
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AT LEAST AT LEAST AT LEAST.
I got my Logitech mx518 from Chris today,
along with the mousepad. God I miss this feeling.
And my my, it's huge!
Razer Goliathus ftw, it's amazing.
Boxcar Racer - I Feel So
"Sometimes.
I wish I was brave.
I wish I was stronger,
I wish I could feel no pain.
I wish I was young,
I wish I was shy,
I wish I was honest,
I wish I was you not I.
'Cause
I feel so mad,
I feel so angry,
I feel so callous,
So lost, confused, again.
I feel so cheap,
So used, unfaithful
Let's start over,
Let's start over.
Sometimes.
I wish I was smart.
I wish I made cures for,
How people are.
I wish I had power.
I wish I could lead.
I wish I could change the world,
For you and me"
Saturday, 18 October 2008
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Just so you know, Dad,
I didn't bring this on myself.
You did. Why don't You,
go and think about it.
Oh and hey, I can't talk to a fucking
brick that goes "Don't know", "Anything".
Please, I can't believe I thought I could
count on you to watch my back.
& you can't even bother to apologize
when you forgot. I fucking skipped training
waiting for you. Yes, that does get people
into a lot of trouble.
Stop. Lying. To. Me.
Hi, my life is fucked up,
and down, and left, and right.
Yes, it's a fucked up world,
and a fucked up place. -
Fuck.
Friday, 17 October 2008
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Sigh.
This is beyond me.
"I'll wait, I’ll wait for the ambulance to come,
Pick us up off the floor.
What did you possibly expect under this condition so,
Slow down."
Marcus! Are you stupid,
why are you wasting your time on this?
Yeah, I am :D
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- Name: MCR
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